Talking about Mental Health is harder than you think
I just want to get some stuff off my chest.
Have you ever had a problem in your life that doesn’t go away? Maybe you spend some time trying to fix the problem, but it always seems to come back?
I hate that.
I’ve struggled a lot in my life, but there is one problem that always seems to creep back up. It’s this feeling that seeps into my veins, like a thick black liquid that feels all-consuming. It’s a feeling of intense dissatisfaction with everything, no matter how grand it may be. It’s all-consuming and makes me feel like I’m drowning in my own thoughts.
I’ve struggled with this for years, sometimes it gets better and sometimes it doesn’t.
I don’t know how to stop these feelings, I only know how to push on. I wonder if I’ll always feel this way or if it’s temporary.
Sometimes I think they made me wrong. Maybe my manufacturer was loopy that day and put me together with the wrong parts. There are so many things inside of me I wish I could change, but I know I simply can’t do that I have to accept myself as I come. That is just such a hard thing to do.
I want to run and scream, but I don’t know where I’m going. I just need to release that feeling.
But for now, I’ll put it all away, back in the tiny jar I’ve kept just for the occasion. I’ll take a big deep breath and try to move on.
It’s only temporary, I’ll say. It’s only temporary.
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